Ok, sure, there's a side that sounds like I just want to get out from the Orange Curtain, but there's so much more.
I'm going home. I'm going back to Colorado, where I grew up, to be with the woman I have loved for twenty years.
When we were young, I tried telling her, and she pushed me away...but we always stayed in touch. Last year, we found that we still had strong feelings for each other, and I'm going out there to be with her. I don't want another long-distance relationship (been there, done that), and I don't want to wait to see what happens if I always err on the side of caution.
I want this. I want to be with her, and damnit, I'm doing it.